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I’m Happy

Fake it until you make it,
Does it work with happiness too?
Cause I put on a smile all day long,
As my heart bleeds the saddest songs.
I’m happier than I’ve ever been;
This is the most beautiful day I’ve seen.
I keep telling these lies to myself,
In hope that they come true someday.
I cry myself to sleep at night,
I dread the glimmering morning light.
Some days I just want to slit my wrist,
Give this life a bloody twist.
Oh, I wish to be buried deep,
Six feet under, I want to sleep.
But I wake up every single day,
And plaster a smile on my face.
“I’m happy,” I say.
“I’m okay,” I lie.

Featured image by:ย Dalila Dalpratย fromย Pexels

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  1. The Bold Girl Avatar

    Seeing you after soooo long. How are you?

    Liked by 2 people

    1. WildHeart Avatar

      I’m good, dear. How have you been?

      Liked by 1 person

      1. The Bold Girl Avatar

        I am good too. Thanks for asking.

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      2. WildHeart Avatar

        ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—

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  2. Cindy Georgakas Avatar

    Take good care of you.

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    1. WildHeart Avatar

      Thank you so much, Cindy. You too! ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’

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      1. Cindy Georgakas Avatar

        โค๏ธ๐Ÿ™Œ

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  3. Stuart Avatar

    Take care of yourself please ๐Ÿ˜Š

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    1. WildHeart Avatar

      Thank you, Stuart. I will. You too take care of yourself. ๐Ÿค—

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      1. Stuart Avatar

        ๐Ÿ˜Š

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      2. WildHeart Avatar
  4. Bharath Upendra Avatar

    Shreyaaaaaaaaaaaa๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜

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    1. WildHeart Avatar

      Baka baka ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜

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  5. Navin Avatar

    Good to see you back, Shreya. I hope you’re doing well & it’s a fantasy poem.

    FYI: a lot has happened with my site. I’ve shutdown navinspoems.com (due to several issues) & have created a brand new site navinspoetry.com.

    Take care dear โœจโค๏ธ

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    1. WildHeart Avatar

      Thank you so much, Navin. I’m doing well. How have you been?
      I’ll definitely go through your site. I’m sure I’ve missed out on lots of amazing poetry.
      Loads of love. โ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธ

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      1. Navin Avatar

        I’m glad to know you’re doing sell. I’m fine, thanks. I haven’t been writing a lot due to issues with my old site. I spent over 2 months in resolving the issue, which no one could help with. So I lost a lots of time. But I think I’m back now ๐Ÿ˜Šโค๏ธโค๏ธ

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      2. WildHeart Avatar

        I’m glad you’re back. ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—โ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธ

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      3. Navin Avatar

        ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—โค๏ธโค๏ธ

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  6. uzzawal1911 Avatar

    This is good poem, and I think its common for a creative mind to feel conflicted and overthink. Given how creative you are its quite possible. Imo journaling the thoughts will help. I wish you best.

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    1. WildHeart Avatar

      Thank you so much, Uzzawal. I journal a lot. How have you been?

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      1. uzzawal1911 Avatar

        I am good, thank you. ๐Ÿ˜Š

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      2. WildHeart Avatar

        ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—

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  7. Silver Stone Avatar

    WildHeart!!!!!! It’s so good to hear from you! ๐Ÿ˜ƒ
    It’s been a while, bud. How are you doing?

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    1. WildHeart Avatar

      Heyyy… it’s nice being back. ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜
      I’ve been good, dear. How have you been?

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      1. Silver Stone Avatar

        Iโ€™m doing good. You know, same old stuff

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      2. WildHeart Avatar

        ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—

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  8. David Gittlin Avatar

    There is happiness and purpose in this life. You don’t have to “put on a smile.” Find your inner smile. Read this. It may help you. Blessings. https://davidgittlin.net/2020/05/14/hidden-treasure/

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    1. WildHeart Avatar

      Thank you so much, David. It really helped, especially your bio. I’m a copywriter hoping to write her own book someday. Seems like, your life is my dream life.
      You stumbling upon my poem is the best thing that happened to me today. ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜

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      1. David Gittlin Avatar

        I’m so glad it helped. I started out with copy writing, then short stories, then screenplay, then novels. One step at a time. Your dream will come true.

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      2. WildHeart Avatar

        Thank you so much, David. You’re an inspiration! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿค—

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  9. Adidas Avatar

    Mental health degradation in poetry: spot on, girl!

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    1. WildHeart Avatar

      Thank you so much, dear. Glad you liked it. How have you been?

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  10. Untold Stories Avatar

    Shreyyyyyaaaaa hiiiiiiiiii!
    How have you been? It’s been so long. I hope you are good.

    This poem is so beautiful.
    I hope it’s just a poem and you don’t plaster your smile.

    We love our Shreya and we want her to smile always!
    And also to tell her we really missed her here. Hope she stays now. And not leave us.

    I really missed you girl๐Ÿค—

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  11. H.R Phoenix, Author Avatar

    Nice one ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘Œ

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      1. H.R Phoenix, Author Avatar

        You’re welcome! ๐Ÿ˜Š

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    1. WildHeart Avatar

      โ™ฅ๏ธ

      Like

  12. Harsh Avatar

    Oh, I wish to be buried deep,
    Six feet under, I want to sleep.

    I wish the same. So good!

    Heyyyyaaaaaaaa!!!! How are you????

    Liked by 1 person

    1. WildHeart Avatar

      I’m kinda sad that you feel the same… Hehe
      I’ve been good. How have you been? How’s everything? ๐Ÿค—

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      1. Harsh Avatar

        Don’t be sad. I live with it so, doesn’t matter.
        Glad to know you are good. I am fine. Things are okay-ish. Thank you for asking. ๐Ÿ˜ƒ

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      2. WildHeart Avatar

        ๐Ÿ˜ฌ๐Ÿ˜ฌ๐Ÿ˜ฌ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—

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  13. Anushk@ Avatar

    Shreyaaaaaaaa๐Ÿคฉ
    Do you have any freakin’ idea…how much I have missed you here???

    Now don’t go please ๐Ÿฅบ
    I want my smiling Shreya with her emojis.!!
    Bring her back asap.

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    1. WildHeart Avatar

      Heyyyy… Don’t miss me. I’m always just a call away! ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—
      I’ll try not to go. But for now I’m back with all my hugs and love. ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—โ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธ๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’—โฃ๏ธโฃ๏ธโฃ๏ธ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•
      Love you loads and loads!! ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’

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  14. Shweta Suresh Avatar

    Wow, Shreya. This is true for many.. well written! Sometimes plastering a smile is much better than trying to explain. Because most people won’t listen anyway. If they do listen, what they have to say probably won’t make things any better ๐Ÿ™†๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ

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    1. WildHeart Avatar

      Thank you so much, Shweta!! So glad you liked it. Sending you loads and loads of love. ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—โ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธ
      How have you been?

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  15. Shweta Suresh Avatar

    And I’ve missed you, Shreya! It’s great to have you back!

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    1. WildHeart Avatar

      I’m glad to be back! ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—โฃ๏ธโฃ๏ธโฃ๏ธ
      I’m sure I’ve missed so many awesome posts on your blog. I’ll read it all soon. ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜

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  16. Era Avatar

    Hey, Shreya, how you have been? I hope you are doing good
    Happy to see you back

    And yes, beautiful poem ๐Ÿ’™

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    1. WildHeart Avatar

      I’ve been good, Era. How have you been? How’s everything?

      I’m glad to be back. And thank you so much for all the love and support you keep showing me. Sending you loads and loads of love. ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’

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      1. Era Avatar

        That’s nice to know
        I am fine too
        ๐Ÿ’™๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’™

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      2. WildHeart Avatar

        ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•

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  17. Brad Osborne Avatar

    Glaring and unforgiving, the oppression of life falls heavy with your words. Your unblinking view on sadness speaks to places most do not want to think about. You create a lovely tension between life and the desire for more than life. Well written, Shreya! Good to read your work again!

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    1. WildHeart Avatar

      Thank you so much, Brad. So glad you liked it. Your words always mean so much to me. ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—โฃ๏ธโฃ๏ธโฃ๏ธโฃ๏ธ

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  18. Ladysag77 Avatar

    Never cared for the “fake it till you make it” mantra. Living life real, out loud and proud is my way. Nice poem my friend โค

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    1. WildHeart Avatar

      Thank you so much, dear! You’re right living life as it is, is so much better than faking. โฃ๏ธโฃ๏ธโฃ๏ธ

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  19. Genesisnvibe Avatar

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    1. WildHeart Avatar

      Sure! Thank you so much!

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  20. The Eclectic Contrarian Avatar

    Iโ€™m not necessarily good at faking it. Sometimes just being honest about it helps. Hopefully this makes sense.

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    1. WildHeart Avatar

      Honesty always helps! ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’• Thank you! โ™ฅ๏ธ

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      1. The Eclectic Contrarian Avatar

        I have no reason to lie.

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      2. WildHeart Avatar

        Haha… That’s nicee!

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  21. Gentleman Dave Avatar

    I miss you, too, Shreya. I hope the sadness does not overwhelm, but that your beautiful spirit keeps you afloat when the water rises. ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—

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    1. WildHeart Avatar

      Aww, Dave… I miss you too! ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜ I’m good!
      How have you been?

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      1. Gentleman Dave Avatar

        Trying to stay positive here. I’ve been riddled with health issues recently. Keeping faith and staying strong. I hope to see more of you around here soon, dear Shreya! โค๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—โค

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      2. Shreya Joshi Avatar

        Damn!! Take care, Dave. Did you go to the doctor?

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      3. Gentleman Dave Avatar

        Yes, many times. It’s an ongoing issue. Thank you for your concern! Stay happy, Shreya! ๐Ÿค—

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      4. Shreya Joshi Avatar

        Take care, Dave! ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•

        Liked by 1 person

      5. Gentleman Dave Avatar

        Thank you, sweetheart! ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—โฃ๐Ÿ’ž

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      6. Shreya Joshi Avatar

        ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜

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      7. Gentleman Dave Avatar

        ๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹

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      8. Shreya Joshi Avatar

        ๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹

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  22. Ishita Gupta Avatar

    The last two lines broke my heart๐Ÿ’” Such an amazing poem Shreya!

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    1. Shreya Joshi Avatar

      Thank you so much, dear! ๐Ÿ™ˆ๐Ÿ™ˆ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’—

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  23. Snehakathiravan Avatar

    โ€œIโ€™m okay,โ€ I lie.
    The best line โค๏ธ you expressed your thoughts visually . Keep doing โค๏ธโค๏ธ

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    1. Shreya Joshi Avatar

      Thank you so much, dear! โ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธ

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  24. basanthgeereddy Avatar

    Incredible!!! Your poetry is amazing as usual. Seems to me that you’re going through some rough time. Hope you’re doing well, and I hope you’ll get out of it soon. Have a great day๐Ÿ™‚

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    1. Shreya Joshi Avatar

      Thank you so much, dear. I’m doing good. How are you?

      Liked by 1 person

      1. basanthgeereddy Avatar

        I’m great๐Ÿ™‚

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  25. Rishika Jain Avatar

    ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’–

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    1. Shreya Joshi Avatar

      ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—โ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธ

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  26. Ps.ItsE Avatar

    We have that saying in nursing school- fake it till you make it. I like it because it give u a โ€œsenseโ€ of assurance and confidence โ€“ however In real life โ€“ blah- I canโ€™t do it. But I tell myself that tomorrow will be a better day:)
    Xo

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    1. Shreya Joshi Avatar

      We all tell little white lies to ourselves. How else are we supposed to face another day? ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜

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  27. theweesmirk Avatar

    So damn relatable. Truly. ๐Ÿ™‚

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    1. Shreya Joshi Avatar

      It means a lot coming from you. I absolutely adore your blog. I guess I’m gonna sit and read each and every one of your post. ๐Ÿ™ˆ๐Ÿ™ˆ๐Ÿ™ˆ

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      1. theweesmirk Avatar

        I adore You for saying that! You’re extremely talented; don’t Ever stop writing!

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      2. Shreya Joshi Avatar

        Thank you so much!! ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•

        Liked by 1 person

  28. daneelyunus Avatar

    Welcome back Shreya

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    1. Shreya Joshi Avatar

      I’m glad to be back! โ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธ

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      1. daneelyunus Avatar

        You are my great friend ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Šโค๏ธ

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      2. Shreya Joshi Avatar

        ๐Ÿ™ˆ๐Ÿ™ˆ

        Like

      3. daneelyunus Avatar

        ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š

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      4. daneelyunus Avatar

        Please you do not forget me and you always my great friend. I miss you when you are busy ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š

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      5. Shreya Joshi Avatar

        Haha… Thank you so much. How can anyone forget you?

        Like

      6. daneelyunus Avatar

        ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š

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  29. blogworld247 Avatar

    No sadness by my side

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  30. blogworld247 Avatar

    Happy people hardly old

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  31. blogworld247 Avatar

    I always want to be happy

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  32. Iโ€™m Happy – The Beautiful Boss Magazine Avatar

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